Has been a really long time since i blog, well well here i am.

Have been in sheraton for about 2 monthis plus, and work is not easy going for me aat all. There is always so much to do, and almost everyday i will sacrifice my own time to go work early, if i start work at 8am i will reach the latest at about 630, and if afternoon 3 or 2pm i will be there at about 12plus. Some people may think that i am crazy or what, but i really need to do so, coz im slow when im doing things, im trying really hard to go faster, but im afraid to make mistakes. And different people has different methods of making somthing, sometimes when im doing somthing a few people will give me different directions making me really confused and irritated, i hate it. So at work i am usually very damn quiet and try to talk less, coz less problems will come.

Life has been really tough lately, both at home and at work. My mum has been loosing trust at me, I dont know why, she says she know a secret of mine but she wont say, if its my secret i should know what, just say la and clarify with me whats the problem please dont wishy washy. and she wont talk to me properly, screeming and shouting all the time, and she has been unhappy about me going to work early and dont understand that i get really busy and out of time at work, she says all kind of crap like if i go work early and if accident happen company insurance wont cover all that, walau, i go cut cakes do cake counter leh whats wrong, and i can eat my free breakfast slowly. She even asked my grandfather to stop picking me up at 515am because she doesent like him,there goes my free and comfortable transport and most importantly my quality time with my grandfather. And when she need help she will talk so nicely, example my brother need and nice pasta recipe for his school exam and she try to please me to give, and she will pay for the finest ingredients. and if in the case if i need ingredients for my own stuff hardly i will get!! Sorry mummy, but its really very difficult for me to go on like that.and happy birthday

Ever since Sec4 i survive with 250 per month from grandma, minus my hp bill its 220,my family has stopped feeding me. defititely its not enough, so together with my interest for food i sold some stuff in school for money. From then till know i learnt that no matter what i want in life, i have to depend on myself and not others. Maybe this is how my poor attitude is formed.

Go work people also nag, go home also people nag, go out people call and nag. wtf/wth is wrong. I need some peace.

bye bye, next post should be a happy post